LennaB,
In case you've failed to realize it previously, here's an absolute truth regarding the Org: Integrity/Truth are relative to the circumstance.
Just my personal assessment. Listen, this is why so many within just treat it like just a religion: Take the good, leave the bad or not applicable, and keep moving on 'til the day of expiration.
Believe me, it's so much nicer this way!
GC